I cannot begin to imagine having to make a decision as you did; there are too many variables.
I may have mentioned in this forum at one time or another that my daughter has epilepsy, medically intractable. She is on a lot of medication that has many effects on her as the epilepsy itself does. By all appearances she seems "normal" to everyone, but that changes quickly if they happen to view one of her seizures.
During school, the kids were not particularly kind to her, especially [some of] her "friends". There was one girl up our street who Sarah was friendly with, being her first friend when they moved to our neighbourhood. Dayna and Sarah played a lot together early on, but when Sarah was diagnosed with E at 11, things started to change as did the circle of friends. Dayna became "popular" and spent less time with Sarah, especially after Sarah began having the seizures. This was mostly due to other friend's influences.
Unfortunately, Dayna was discovered to have desmoplastic small round "blue cell" tumour cancer (DSRCT) at age 15, an unusual and agressive form of cancer that usually only affects boys (5-1). Sarah loved Dayna; I know this because she still sleeps with a plush moose toy that they bought together early on. She cherishes a few things that Dayna's mom gave her after Dayna died, a mere 8 months after diagnosis. Unfortunately because the other girls were mostly around, Sarah was not comfortable being with them, so Dayna missed out on support from a person who could have helped a lot.
I shudder to think of what Dayna's parents - or I - might have decided to do were we given a choice during pregnancy. I am not sure which heartache would be worse.
Blessings and peace to you.
EDITED: 5 Jun 2015 10:19 by FIXRMAN